Jan 1, 2004

happy new year __*

its been a lOng time i updated yO? =X hEhes~ im feeling much much more betta~! =D =D =D

this few days, i always 3+ den sleep. cos chatting with [blah] mahs~ hehes~ he cheered up alot norhs~ den 30/12/2003 [tuesdae] he ask me go out *paiseh* hahas~ But hor, i still reject lerhs~ =X
hahas~ He say want to buy me present. Den i ask y want to buy me present. Den he say, cos he wanna thanks me fer being such a wonderful and good good friend to him~ *l0lz* den i say he very silly~ wahahha~ *sigh* can be happy and sad~

*lOlz* emmm~ actualli, i got alot alot alot of things to say de~ budden, suddenly dont feel like updating and feel like dont want to have blog liaos~ zZz~

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Dec 29, 2003

crying night __*

hmm? now ish morning norhs.. hais~ last night i 3+ den sleep ba? = hehes..
last night i cried for hours... hourss... hourss... just becos of my itchy mouth go ask him smth?
*sighh* i ask him if he likes any people? Den, he tell me yes... a gurl.. from his skool... since sec 1? onli, gwen knoe abt the whole matter, cos i kinda show her our chat log? sigh* i think its impossible between us. But i still hope for a miracle? i'm waiting.... just like what he tell me. he will wait for that gurl. i will wait for him. but he dont knoe i like him larhs. =X and i dun dare to let him knoe.

sighh* but he knoes that, i like someone. But he dont knoe that someone is him! =_-! everyone ask me to confess my feeling for him. But i dont want. CS ask me to gimmi his msn... But i dont want. I knoe maybe CS wanna tell him my feeling for him? But i dont want [blah] to know about my feelings for him. I rather wait... wait.. wait.. *sighh*

Now chatting with gwen lorhs, i ask her whether got chat log got obvious i like him? she say yesh.. and he act blur? -l0lz- *ARHhhHHH* die ler.... next time i dun dare to chat with him ler... *sighh* now my eyes is damn swollen... =/ sms wif him last night norhs... i dont know larhs. haizzz... maybe wait norhs... hais... Honestly, even if stead for one day i oso happy. but... *sighh* u all knoe de lorhs. its impossible between us de....

*sighh*

[ wait... and i will wait for u ] - lurve yaz

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Dec 28, 2003

emmm __*

todae went to orchard at around 5pm plus~ hehes~ very fun norhs~ buy alot of things... =D

mmmm. saw alot of people in orchard todae. hehes. den keep got alot of ppl call me until hp alm0st l0w batt. =/ den janice jie very clever sia~ =.=! cos todae she go meet icy norhs~ den, i dont knoe what they tok or wadeva la~ *l0lz* den dont knoe why janice jie go gif icy my number cos icy ask fer it~ haha~ =X den at ard 7+ icy msg me. den sms until 9+ ba? ferget ler. =/ den he sae i dao. =.=" cos dun wan reply his sms.~ wahhaha~ Den neva reply him ler norhs. den he suddenly send one sms send miss moi~ wahahha* den i reply back. me sho touched lerhs. haha. den he bo reply ler. shit him plz. lOlz* den i sms janice, she b0 reply w0 eh. l0ls.. den reach home faster on computer norhs~

den i go in jie channel. they all cap lock here and dere =.=! sae wad icy blah blah blah~ den almost the whole IRC people knoe? = den tt idoit chi chi kip ask me accept him~ sae he bery yD de~ very good de~ and blah blah. =/ den jan sae, got out wif him, sure got free movie watch~ -.-! zZz ~

Den someone come tell moi a mi mi ~ = this mi mi sucks~ LoLz~ cos .... lOLz~ dun wanna sae out? =D den kun sae wan go out on jan 1~ [coolll] he sae go esplande watch my dearest mei mei play gu zheng!!! =D budden, i duno wanna go anort. haha~ cos maybe [blah] andy icy going too~ haha~ not sure... if go, i sure blush till siao manz~ wahhahaha* hehes~ tml den update kayz? he's online!!! =D

[ i wanted to tell u my feelings, but i'm scared ]

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Dec 27, 2003

shopping time __*

mmm? hehes.. heyo!!! im back home ler~ just come baqQQQ~~~ ho ho ho~

kekekes~ went to bugis in the last min~ =D Actualli, dun wanna go de larhs~ budden, in the end still go norhs. =S lolz~
went wif mummie, cousinz, sis and bro. neva meet someone ler ~

todae brought alot of thingy~ spend damn alot of money!!!! wahhaha~ spend around 50+? kekes~ took neoprintz again~! =D
i LURVE todae neo printz~! its not niceee!! ho ho ho~ bugis got new de machine ler~ kekes~ maybe, i fer v long neva go ler~ tat's why bugis got new de machine i oso dun knoe~ l0lz.... emm~ brought a skool bag and shoe AGAIN! *luffs*

mummie sae, whoever marrys me will be damn cham~ ho ho ho ~ cos i everytime spending money here and there~ wahahha~ den on the way home, msg siongz norhs~ den he reply. i no reply back~ haha~ cos i lazy and scare bill pop yeaz? *l0lz*

Den reach home ler, faster on computer, hoping to see [blah]. But he wasnt there. His computer spoil ba? Thatz why neva see him online~ *sighh* just now see, newspaper saw tt china got sars... wtf? ermm.. moi dad is in china now~ maybe will tio qurati ba~ 14 days @ home? sucks yea~!! *sighh* tml going to orchard~ ho ho ho~ tml den update ~ =D

* - mmoodd - * happy !

* - llisteningg - * Ye Zi

* - cChattingG - * Chichi, kun, xuzai, justy, joseph, siongz, jUnz

* - eeating - * nothing ~

[ altough.it.hurts.but.i.still.wanna.carry.on.loving.you ] - lurve u lotsa

* pray that, dad will be fine *

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slacking __*

hehes.. didnt update yesterdae, cos very lazy to update norhs... yesterday, almost whole day in IRC. Cos very very long time neva go moi jie channel liaos. Den i go in take a look.. wahhh... inside still alot of things to talk about. haha~ miss everyone yea? =D Den after that play dai dee norhs... yesterday, =.-! very very boring sia~

went to skool yesterdae morning to help my brother take his skool books. its sho damn heavy manz. Actually, i intend to take cab home~ but look at my wallet, only left with $35+. No money ler =S Den dont want to take norhs. Den come back home~ start to slack again... =S Almost quarreled with someone. toopid sia~ and i hate the feeling of being betray.! =@ =@ =@ very fed up de norhs. when u're being betray. hiya, dun want to talk about it ler larhs. talk ler, oso sianz 1/2 sia~

Emm... Yesterday night, sms wif siongzz~ den he tell moi something, which make me feel sad fer him~ =( den he ask me tomolo, which is todae, free anort. den i maybe not~ cos going out~ he want ask me go see movie~ but i dun wan.. haha.. v paiseh. =X den whole dae slack and slack~ =S very piss off and fed up this few days.. dont knoe why larhs. toopid sia~ hahas...

lata going out ~ hehehe~ update tonight okays?

crAp|`gEr >aKa< aTtidUe-gURlL

[ i'm willing to wait, no mattter no long ]

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Dec 25, 2003

lonely night __*

din went out todae norhs. now ish 10+ norhs. chatting with steph now. told her dont feel lyk living in this world ler. dont know why.. keep listening to a song sang by a sang. its damn sad and nice norhs.

dont knoe why, suddenly feel lik crying... den cry out norhs. its sho damn sad now~ haiz* dont know what to do now.... emm.. haisss

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lonely xmas __ *

hehes~ todae ish christmas dae~!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

ermmm~ sians* dont know what to do sia~ its sho damn boring~ okies~ actualli, yesterdae nite, wanted to go fer da countdown. in the end, i din go yea? First was kena tired, lazy, and dont realli feel lyk going ler~ cos of some reasons no need m0i t0 sae out. u all also knoe hors? =X

last night __*

hiya~ sho depress last night. chat wif chester, jan jie, mindy, jooleng, jun hong, xuzai dey all norhs~ while chatting, keep listening to zaizai new song norhs. hehes~ listen until i almost want to cry. budden, jan jie ask moi not to cry~ cos christmas eve cannot cry. =( den, i cry norhs... moi msn nick yst put " its really hurts alot when the person dont lurve you " but. jan jie sae, it hurts more when the person u lurve ish not happy with you. true norhs~ it really hurts alot...~ *sighh*

now __ *

now chatting wif siongz norhs. he keep asking moi to go watch ju-on2 wif him~ hahas... and i sae no money. he sae he treat. =_-! den i sae bu yao larhs, bu hao yi shi. hahas~ den he sae.. iyoo... wont de larhs.. haha.. den i ask him go ask his ******** go ~ he sae, she dun dare to watch horror movie~ if not she will cry nors~ *sighh* xuzai, now knoe abt [the thing liaos] same goes fer [jan jie] too~ i tell jan jie guess norhs. =_=! den she guess correct. *piangz* lolss... den yesterdae afternoon, cos one of moi friend wan to see his picture norhs. den i put on moi display pic gif her see norhs. den whiz mei saw it =.=! den she keep di siao, di siao~ wan to luff dose kind~ den i think she ah ga ah ga, oso knoe ler lar, hor mei? =.=! knoe jiu knoe, but must [shhhhh] okies? ^^;; emmm... sigh~~~~~~ update tonight again okays? cya peeps~ enjoy ur christmas dae~

[ fer the first time, i felt lonely, during this bitter x'mas dae ]

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Dec 24, 2003

merry x`mas eve =) __*

todae happen alotsa of thingys norhs.

first ish, i broke wif [him] ler~ it was mindy who help moi to tell him~ thx alotsa mindy~
second ish, todae ish x`mas eve. actually, going out de~ budden, in the end neva~
third ish, this moi de first time using this blog!!! ^^;; must duo duo support and teach nehs. =P
forth ish, moi grandpa got into hospital~ ='( *s0Bz . s0Bz*~

haiz~ todae din realli see [blah] online norhs~ sho sad~ *sighh* this time ish realli, very very different~ last time fer him ish just de mind or rather heart playing with me nia~ this time ish totally different~ this time moi de feeling grow deeper ler alot alot~ i'm trying to stop moi de feeling from growing norhs. I feel that i dont stand that chance norhs. i dont know norhs~ *sighh* lurve jiu ish lurve~ foreva someone getting hurt... this time i will be the wan getting hurt. Budden, i still want to wait. wait for that chance even though its hurtful. i still wanna wait. just now he online, den suddenly offline... din chat wif him todae norhs. yesterday, online until 12am+ he oso not there. den i offline lerhs. haiss. lata in the night, den i update ba. ^^;;

lotsa of lurve,
angeline >aKa< attidue_gurll

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